Life on Life’s Terms

I heard “religion is for those who believe in hell; spirituality is for those who have been there.”  So true.  It’s funny how the step work and the meeting shares really drive home the reality. I have accepted the reality that I am an addict –that I have the disease of addiction.  What does that acceptance mean to me?  It changes my perspective on life in a whole new way. I am reborn in recovery.  52 days today, and I’m almost to my 60-day tag.  It’s really an accomplishment.  My sponsor pointed out to me, by asking me “how long has it been since you have gone without drugs for 52 days?” I had to go back more than a decade to claim that.  So I am accepting myself as I am; finding out who I am; reinventing myself.  I know now just how powerless I am over my addiction and how unmanageable my life has been, so I surrender all that I am over to a loving God as I understand Him, because I believe only He can restore me to sanity.  I finished my Step 1 and am ready to commence Step 2.  I find that I am thirsty for knowledge and growth on this path.  I see what I need to change in my life.  I see behaviors instantly that I recognize as my acting out behaviors.  I want drastic changes now.

I tried to highlight my hair, but it turned orange.  Hmmm.  Maybe drastic changes need to be delayed, and I need to be distracted with something else.  I really love that I am feeling so on-fire for my recovery.  I am starting to get involved in service.  NOTHING and I mean NOTHING is better than one addict helping another.  It’s a great feeling.  That’s why I created this website and blog-site.  I am one addict seeking to help another, hoping one of you will share your story here too.  I feel vulnerable, but positive–cautious, but productive and motivated to keep on keepin’ on. I am ready to live life on life’s terms.  It will be a hell of  ride, but what a learning experience.  I’m on the healing path, on my new journey…and I am not alone.  There are so many others out there who join me in battle.  The battle of addiction.  I am wearing my armor and ready to fight.  At the same time, I feel so much love…and I intend to share it with as many people as I can.

Peace, love and blessings for the journey my friends.  Thanks for stopping here; no judgment–just sharing.