I heard “religion is for those who believe in hell; spirituality is for those who have been there.” So true. It’s funny how the step work and the meeting shares really drive home the reality. I have accepted the reality that I am an addict –that I have the disease of addiction. What does that acceptance mean to me? It changes my perspective on life in a whole new way. I am reborn in recovery. 52 days today, and I’m almost to my 60-day tag. It’s really an accomplishment. My sponsor pointed out to me, by asking me “how long has it been since you have gone without drugs for 52 days?” I had to go back more than a decade to claim that. So I am accepting myself as I am; finding out who I am; reinventing myself. I know now just how powerless I am over my addiction and how unmanageable my life has been, so I surrender all that I am over to a loving God as I understand Him, because I believe only He can restore me to sanity. I finished my Step 1 and am ready to commence Step 2. I find that I am thirsty for knowledge and growth on this path. I see what I need to change in my life. I see behaviors instantly that I recognize as my acting out behaviors. I want drastic changes now.
I tried to highlight my hair, but it turned orange. Hmmm. Maybe drastic changes need to be delayed, and I need to be distracted with something else. I really love that I am feeling so on-fire for my recovery. I am starting to get involved in service. NOTHING and I mean NOTHING is better than one addict helping another. It’s a great feeling. That’s why I created this website and blog-site. I am one addict seeking to help another, hoping one of you will share your story here too. I feel vulnerable, but positive–cautious, but productive and motivated to keep on keepin’ on. I am ready to live life on life’s terms. It will be a hell of ride, but what a learning experience. I’m on the healing path, on my new journey…and I am not alone. There are so many others out there who join me in battle. The battle of addiction. I am wearing my armor and ready to fight. At the same time, I feel so much love…and I intend to share it with as many people as I can.
Peace, love and blessings for the journey my friends. Thanks for stopping here; no judgment–just sharing.
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In early Recovery it’s easy to be excited or motivated. It’s after the 90 meetings in 90 days that we have to find favor in ourselves and not get lazy or complacent about it