Update to my previous blog post – total snowfall from the last storm came to 27 inches!!! I am blessed and grateful to have wonderful neighbors, who literally DUG ME OUT today over the course of three hours! I decided to make a run for groceries, since I missed my IOP appointment in Santa Fe (due to the bad weather) and the doctor would not prescribe my Suboxone without seeing me first. I was thus rescheduled for an appointment next week and will have to make it without on my own until then. There are withdrawal type feelings, but I am able to manage anyway. As I said in a previous post or two, I don’t intend to be on this program forever anyway.
I will have to upload the pictures and post them on this site if I can figure that out soon. I still have to get registered for school, and am applying for other positions, therefore I have a lot to do to keep myself occupied. My recovery has taught me to focus on the positive instead of the negative aspects of my life, In short, I am GRATEFUL for all of this snow, especially since I prayed for it to happen. I wanted a lot of snow. I wanted there to be so much snow that my company would have to close down for a day or two and that’s exactly what happened! I also noticed that I was on a manic high today which is something I haven’t been aware of for some time. I came back from the store after it got dark, so the roads were icy, and after I unloaded everything and took some excess items to my neighbors as a thanks, I decided to try to get my back deck cleared —in snow that came up higher than mid-thigh on me! Then, I decided to start the laundry once I cleared the snow away from the external vent. I continued to move on and start cooking dinner for myself, while changing the linens on my bed. I finally started to crash from it and am now feeling very exhausted, but pleased with myself.
Recovery is a fickle woman. Sometimes she is slow, deliberate and manageable. Other times, she is fraught with challenges that accelerate our daily behaviors. Having Bi-polar disorder in the mix, I have learned mindfulness techniques when my brain is going too much faster than my body. I exercise, do my yoga, and sketch (I am teaching myself art therapy).
I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO BE A BETTER YEAR THAN LAST YEAR AND MAYBE A GREAT YEAR ALTOGETHER!!! I wish all who read this, the same…be prepared for a better year and a better life in recovery!
Always remember this…there is HOPE and HELP AVAILABLE TO YOU, DON’T GIVE UP!!!!
Peace, love and blessings to all….